Contentment + Wholeness: How to get it
Sep 21, 2023I personally want to say Thank You to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday yesterday. My day was
spent in deep thought: reflecting and receiving. Basking and breathing. Appreciating and feeling.
For the first time in my life, I woke up craving a slow day of celebration.
In the past, I wanted big parties, week-long celebrations, and over-the-top gifts and greetings. And the
more I dug into what lived beneath this was a deep desire to be known, to be seen, to be adored, and to
be loved…
It was quite the discovery!
Like most individuals, I was using external experiences to fill internal voids… a very common coping
mechanism.
I felt a similar feeling last year, but not quite to the extent of yesterday’s.
Last evening, it dawned on me: I woke up content.
I woke up without the anxious anticipation to hear from anyone and everyone. Or, like I needed to be
showered lavishly with gifts and praise. And, I couldn’t have cared less about a big, birthday dinner and
multiple rounds of cocktails… (only to feel physically, and emotionally, hungover from all of it the next
day).
It was such an usual experience for me – not craving attention from others. And, not relying on praise
and external validation to feel happy.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s lovely to receive… And – I don’t need it.
Why? Because with each day I am actively learning myself deeper.
I am knowing myself more. I am seeing myself more clearly.
I am adoring myself in more authentic ways. I am celebrating my heart and my spirit.
I am loving myself. Like actually, loving myself.
I spent many years simply saying that I loved myself, but without really feeling it deep inside. It’s like I
was trying to convince myself in hopes that it would actually stick someday…
If you told me 8 years ago that I’d be writing an email to you like this… typing these words… I would
have never believed you.
I have longed to love myself for a very long time. And each day is different. Some days are simple and
smooth, and other days I lean in begrudgingly.
But each of those days led me to such a wonderful, life-giving, whole-body-and-whole-soul kind of
birthday yesterday.
That is healing.
That is what David and I bring to our Daring Deeply clients every single day.
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Thank you again for following my journey of wholeness and healing.
Here’s to yours,
Paige Lea